(to my 65 year old self)

Wassup Triple OG!!!

I hope I’m healthy and strong still and didn’t catch that damn cancer yet or get a hip replacement. Shit, I hope I’m alive and functioning period lol.

I’ve been trying to take good care of myself for me, but sometimes I get caught up in living in the moment and getting lit and I neglect myself. I know I’m looking back and thinking “damn, I was a wild boy back then” lol. But I have definitely calmed down a bit compared to where I was 3-5 years ago, and I am exercising, drinking plenty water, and making peace with myself to avoid the acceleration of mental deterioration along the way. So I still feel pretty good.

I hope all my family and friends are thriving and living exceptional lives.

How’s life been the future 30 years? Anything crazy happen? America still runnin thangs? Have I done anything that would impress me? If I know me (which I’m still getting to know), I’m sure I did something. Did I ever attain the type of liberating love I wanted? Or did I realize that it may be a fallacy or not applicable to me? Have I mastered our energy yet? What do I believe in? What do I love? What have I accomplished? I hope I’m a grandfather or something by now and bestowing our wisdom on our offspring.

I recently had this epiphany where I’m trying to plan out my thought process & growth down the line. I’ve been so accustomed to creating plans for other parts of my life like education, career paths, and making money, but I never really considered the path of my thought process or spirituality. It’s kinda crazy because I was reading some shit I wrote years ago and it was so fascinating how differently I think and articulate things compared to now. So I can’t wait to see how I think in 30 years.

Am I still borderline sexist and ain’t shit? Surely not. That shit is childish and immature *hairflip* lol. The older I get, do I become more cynical or optimistic?

I also want to know what drives or motivates me by that time. My priorities and motives have shifted so much since I was a kid, I know it’s going to be ongoing.

Lol whats “race” like in the future? People still trippin and cant get along? That shit is hella stupid. With that said, I hope I’ve transcended it myself lol.

What would the 65 year old me tell the 35 year old me if I could? Should I stop being an antagonist? I’m sure I’d insist that I commit to something beyond myself, in due time my G lol.

I’ll continue to work on myself for me to ensure we are of a sound mind and physical shape by then, or whatever I can that’s within my control. Whatever else, I will let be and improvise from there.

I hope I still love me.

-caps