My mom just asked me for a copy of this blog I wrote referring to her getting married back in 2006 so she could use it to prepare for a speech she’s giving at a marriage conference in December.

Re-reading it I (think) I’m proud to say that my perspective hasn’t changed much beyond my desire to raise a family and bestow my knowledge on to my 2.0’s

I’ve decided to repost it as an 8 year anniversary of the original. I’ve made some slight additions in italicized brackets to keep it a little more honest with my 25 year old self at the time. 

 

 

My entire life, my mom has never really been in a serious enough

relationship to ever bring up the idea of marriage (besides her
marriage to my biological father that divorced when I was 3).  I was
aware she had boyfriends, but I never thought they were that serious.
I figured it was just for companionship.

Well tonight she told me this guy she has recently been talking to wants to marry her. I know she doesn’t take him serious (I hope) [they got married a few months later] because I think they’ve only been talking for the past few weeks, maybe months [I was obviously inattentive lol].  Actually, thinking back at the moment, I think she was hopeful of the idea of someone wanting to marry her.  I could see it in her eyes.  so much hope.  it was beautiful.  I wonder which thought she was embracing more, being married? or the possibility of true love?

Seeing this made me reflect back on one of my eternal questions.  What is the purpose of life? Some would say to find your soulmate, find love.  For some odd reason when I think about the purpose of my life, I don’t really think that applies to me.  I mean, I think about my soul connecting to “the ones” and marriage and all that nice super candy coated stuff, but I know I wont be satisfied with just that. With that, i know the purpose of my life isn’t just to find my soulmate.

But in contrast to what my purpose isn’t, maybe my purpose is to meet someone who wants to share and endure this journey we call life.  I mean even if we had partisan perspectives on life,  if we understood each other and we could grow and create our own perspectives together, something for us to share.

Maybe there is someone who enjoys all the experiences of life as much as I do.  From all aspects, cultural, arts and theater, sports, comedy, historical, political, [talking shit with, functioning, doing hoodrat things with my friends], activist, community, just everything.

Maybe there is someone who constantly strives to better themselves as much as I do. from all aspects.  Mind. Body. Soul.

Maybe there is someone who feels that any injustice to humanity is a threat to us, then meaning we must do our part to ensure that injustice is corrected.

So what is the purpose of life?

I think its pretty clear that whatever your purpose of life is, it should evolve around love.  Either to love or be loved [or doing what you love].  Our souls yearn for that type of affection [and/or output].  On any platform. 

We live our entire life in search of love.  No matter how old we get, we need that feeling.

As much as I try to avoid the feeling because “I wanna be financially established and be a provider [and get all the bop out my system]” before I caught up in that arena lol I know its all just a smokescreen for me to try to take my mind away from it now.  I know if I do get too concerned with love I will fall victim to lower standards.  (what the hell does this have to do with the purpose of life?)

I dont really know lol, just throwin in my own self therapy while typing this.

Now that i completely lost track of everything I was just typing lol I ask..

What is your purpose of life?